A practice I started back in 2022, and didn’t even realize I was doing it, is living room dance parties.
It’s like throwing a concert, but it’s just for me.
When I DJ, I don’t worry about anyone else’s preferences because I’m the only one on the dance floor. I play things that make my heart feel good and make me wanna get up and dance.
I play things that make me wanna sing at the top of my lungs.
When I was in the house so many years ago, it was so much easier knowing the neighbors were that much further from me and couldn’t really hear the bass in the speakers or the screech in my voice. But now that I’m in an apartment it’s a little bit harder to set myself as free.
Yet, when I get lost in the flow of the music and the notes that I know I can’t hit, I can’t help but to let loose anyway.
Ironically, I’ve only just went to my very first concert ever recently (mid-year in 2025).
It was such a free experience, but it reminded me a lot of my living room dance parties. My personal concerts.
Whether I stick to one artist or I stick to specific albums, or I go with my recently added songs, or throwbacks, or if I just shuffle everything, I have a time.
It’s been so healing each and every time.
I recently did one where I recorded myself along the way, and put a few videos on social media (Instagram stories – I looooove having an Instagram story up).
Overcoming the thoughts of:
- Will I look embarrassing?
- Will people judge me?
- Will they ridicule me?
Was incredibly freeing.
Who cares what they thought and how they viewed me? All I knew was that I was so happy every time I saw a memory surface from Instagram stories or Snapchat stories, and I want to continue that same practice.
These memories are showing me what my life was like 2, 3, 5, even 7 years ago and I want the same thing for myself 2, 3, 5, even 7 years from now.
Hell, in 10 years from now I want that story to pop up on Instagram and show me this part of my healing journey. The part with me me letting loose in my living room to the songs that I love most, and having a great time doing it.
I had fun and I released, and it was cathartic, and I want to be able to reflect on that.
Because all of these are different parts of me, different phases of me, that need highlighting and celebrating. I want to be able to do that in the future.
So — living room dance parties.
Hopefully the tradition continues. Maybe I’ll expand it to my partner in the future. Maybe I’ll expand it to my future family and all my children.
But….. for now, this is just for me.
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